As the world knows, Melbourne is in heavy lockdown restrictions at the moment thanks to COVID-19. For me as a creative, this has been a fairly normal experience - well, kinda. As many of us creative types do, we tend to retreat to our happy place and get lost with a pencil or brush strokes. Often for days on end, we can simply exist in our little world of making, healing and experimenting. These restrictions have certainly made this easier to do. I no longer need to justify an excuse to stay home with my paints.
With the forced restrictions upon us all in Victoria, came a lot of expectations. Most of which, were self made, but also many expectations set by well, everyone else. The idea of all this time to create and be productive was exciting to start with, a dream in fact. But some 6 or so months in of solid creating, I've hit the wall - Creatively so to speak. I've hit it hard.
Still very deep in lockdown, this doesn't sit to well with me. I don't know what to do if I don't create. I have no desire to pick up a brush, I've even tried to collage again, trying to repurpose old disasters - still it's not helping. A phrase that many of us would never had heard prior to 2020 is " Lockdown Fatigue " its real, its a thing and right now it's me.
Creatively I'm exhausted, I'm worn out and sore, and as all of us in lockdown are, I'm over it. I believe this unsettling feeling I have inside, its my soul telling me to slow down and put the brushes away. The creative passion will return, it has to. My soul needs it.
But for now, I rest. I've got a mountain a work to still share with you, but I'm not sure there will be any new creating happening anytime soon. However, we know a creative soul is often unpredictable, so this little rest may only last a minute.
" I believe rest is the action we take as our present self, to take care, preserve and help our future self " Johanna Rossi
Thanks for sticking this out x
